Love Notes to Self

October 2016 I made a commitment/affirmation to myself - "I am willing and open to receive love". To manifest the love I desire, I starting writing love notes...to myself. These notes were usually born in moments of desire, longing, acceptance, and overwhelming emotion.


Since my first love note, these notes have been overflowing and I am now going to use my blog to share them with you. May you find comfort, solace, familiarity within these notes. Who knows, maybe one day these can be compiled in a complete form.

10/25/16 8:30am

Is it the mere fact that it is cold...or is it electric?

Is it wanting something to be there?

Or is it that something's actually there?

Will patience win? Will sparks die?

What will conquer? What will wait?

What will flow? What will harm?

What will thrive? What will survive?

The hair on my back stands up straight...not for fear...but adrenaline…or longing.

Warm in all the right places, inviting and hoping.

Longing for more than 20...20 minutes of interaction; point 2 seconds.

First physical sensation.

Understanding in locked eyes.

Knowing it could be deeper.

Longing.

I long to stay with you this morning.

Obligation turns my hand.

My feet walk. (Movement)

My heart stays. (Desire)

My mind wanders. (Longing)

Duty and obligation press me forward, but I long to stay here.

Throw caution to the wind.

Embrace….the moment as is.

Cannot be selfish for too many moments.

Cannot...

be ungrateful for the time shared.

Even though the time was limited, the intention was clear.

And the thoughts...still linger.

Why do I feel like you see me?

Because maybe i am presenting myself freely.

Not only do you see me, but I see you too.

I want to know what keeps you awake at night.

I want to know what makes you feel free.

I want to know what drives you inside.

I want to know what terrifies you.

I want to know inside your mind.